on Cam Girl by Elliot Wake (FKA Leah Reader).

Oh Elliot Wake. Check out my previous review of Unteachable  if you’ve never read anything by him. And then read Black Iris that left me so speechless I couldn’t even review. Enjoy!

Synopsis: 

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Vada Bergen is broke, the black sheep of her family, and moving a thousand miles away from home for grad school, but she’s got the two things she loves most: her art and her best friend—and sometimes more—Ellis Carraway. Ellis and Vada have a friendship so consuming it’s hard to tell where one girl ends and the other begins. It’s intense. It’s a little codependent. And nothing can tear them apart.

Until an accident on an icy winter road changes everything.

Vada is left deeply scarred, both emotionally and physically. Her once-promising art career is cut short. And Ellis pulls away, unwilling to talk about that night. Everything Vada loved is gone.

She’s got nothing left to lose.

So when she meets some smooth-talking entrepreneurs who offer to set her up as a cam girl, she can’t say no. All Vada has to do is spend a couple hours each night stripping on webcam, and the “tips” come pouring in.

It’s just a kinky escape from reality until a client gets serious. “Blue” is mysterious, alluring, and more interested in Vada’s life than her body. Online, they chat intimately. Blue helps her heal. And he pays well, but he wants her all to himself. No more cam shows. It’s an easy decision: she’s starting to fall for him. But the steamier it gets, the more she craves the real man behind the keyboard. So Vada pops the question:

Can we meet IRL?

Blue agrees, on one condition. A condition that brings back a ghost from her past. Now Vada must confront the devastating secrets she’s been running from—those of others, and those she’s been keeping from herself…

Review:

How can I POSSIBLY review Cam Girl? If it was up to me, I would create extra stars on GR because this book deserves them all. You need to read this book whoever you are. This book is a MUST.

Recently, I’ve just went through a rough patch of bad books (the last good one was Black Iris also by Elliot Wake LOL) and Cam Girl was just perfect. It had the amazingly colourful writing, gritty storyline and flawed characters. OMG and even disabled representation and people of colour!!!!! Thank you Elliot Wake. So what’s not to love?

Cam Girl had the ultimate mysteries that kept you wondering throughout this book (just check my status updates!). The most important parts of the mysteries however wasn’t who or what but how and why. The book uncovered piece by piece and at the it came together in a most beautiful way. Not gonna lie – I shed some tears. Everything just made sense.

So why do I think you should read this book? It deals with internalised homophobia. This book brought up some questions that I didn’t even know I had – that’s why it’s going on close-to-my-heart-shelf. Beside that Cam Girl dealt with stuff like non-binary. Fluidity. Masculinity. Femininity. It makes you think. But don’t think it’s like an encyclopedia of queerness. Vada, the main character, brings you on journey of self-discovery (in the non-cheesiest way possible) and while she is flawed and you want to shake her sometimes, you can’t help but root and sympathise with her. Cam Girl is full of kickass, interesting characters like Ellis (Vada’s BFF and maybe more?) and Frankie (Vada’s badass cam boss). However the most exciting thing for me was seeing characters from Black Iris and finding out how they are connected to Cam Girl characters!

Basically, read this book. It’s much better than my review because how can you review something so uniquely beautiful? So many beautiful quotes. Truly.

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P.S. It pisses me off when something like this can get 1* on GR. Tbh, some reasons I could understands – this book might not be for everyone. But seriously though, I saw a review that said Cam Girl was over the top with portraying homophobia and it was not a thing because gay people at their high school were popular. Uhm…………. Well what do you have to say about Orlando shooting?

P.P.S. Follow Elliot Wake on social media so we can fangirl together over his coolness and hotness.

Rating: 5 out of 5 (AND MORE) 

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on Unteachable by Leah Raeder.

Hello, there.

I’ve been waiting to read this book for a while and I was super excited to finally read it. And just so you know from the beginning, I LOVED IT! In the past, there were some disappointing books that had a similar theme – teacher/student romance. I will get into that later. I just want to say, Leah Raeder is a genius and here’s my review!

Synopsis:

unteachable

Maise O’Malley just turned eighteen, but she’s felt like a grown-up her entire life. The summer before senior year, she has plans: get into a great film school, convince her mom to go into rehab, and absolutely do not, under any circumstances, screw up her own future.

But life has a way of throwing her plans into free-fall.

When Maise meets Evan at a carnival one night, their chemistry is immediate, intense, and short-lived. Which is exactly how she likes it: no strings. But afterward, she can’t get Evan out of her head. He’s taught her that a hookup can be something more. It can be an unexpected connection with someone who truly understands her. Someone who sees beyond her bravado to the scared but strong girl inside.

That someone turns out to be her new film class teacher, Mr. Evan Wilke.

Maise and Evan resolve to keep their hands off each other, but the attraction is too much to bear. Together, they’re real and genuine; apart, they’re just actors playing their parts for everyone else. And their masks are slipping. People start to notice. Rumors fly. When the truth comes to light in a shocking way, they may learn they were just playing parts for each other, too.

Smart, sexy, and provocative, Unteachable is about what happens when a love story goes off-script.

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on Shooting Scars (The Artist Trilogy #2) by Karina Halle.

Hi.

I have been saying this a lot recently, but I just wasn’t in the mood. I need to get into the habit of writing again. The new year’s revolution is now mad at me! I have finished this book like 2 weeks ago and it’s not because I don’t have anything to say, but I feel like the blog completely disappeared from my mind. Strange, huh? Anyway, here’s the review.

Synopsis:

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A Dangerous Kind of Love . . .
When Ellie Watt offered herself to her thuggish former lover Javier to save Camden’s life, she never imagined the twisted game Javier had planned for her. Trapped by him and his entourage of killers, Ellie is forced to commit a dangerous, heinous crime-or Javier will kill Camden. Now ex-con artist Ellie must find a way to stay ahead of the game . . . before it destroys her and the only man she ever loved.
Camden McQueen can’t forget Ellie Watt. Seeking revenge and pursued by the authorities for a crime he didn’t commit, the talented tattoo artist does things he never thought himself capable of to save Ellie. As Camden straddles the line between love and retribution, he vows to do everything in his power to get her back. But if Camden unleashes his dark side, will Ellie still love him?

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on On Every Street (The Artist Trilogy #0.5) by Karina Halle.

Hello there.

So finally I got around reading the prequel of Sins and Needles and I am so happy that I did. I’ve been behind with my reading (even though I’m still ahead of my Goodreads challenge, yay!). This series definitely gave me a new push with books and I have a feeling that I will be getting out of the whole new adult genre for a bit. Don’t get me wrong – I still like it, but I’ve come across too many unoriginal new adult books that I think I need a break. First I’m going to finish The Artist Trilogy and then I will probably move into some classics that I’ve been meaning to read for ages. So that’s my plan. Oh and don’t forget that in 2 days I’m going to see the anticipated Fifty Shades of Grey movie! But enough about these things, let’s give praise to this amazing series!

Synopsis:

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When young con artist Ellie Watt decides to call herself Eden White and go after the drug lord who ruined her as a child, she never expects to fall for one of his henchmen. But Javier Bernal is no ordinary man. Subtly dangerous and overwhelmingly seductive, Eden finds herself passionately in love with Javier, the very person she’s set-up to betray. With her body and heart in a heated battle against her deep need for revenge, no one will walk away from this con a winner.

Takes place six years before Sins & Needles. It can be read before or after Sins & Needles and may also be read as a standalone.

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on Sins and Needles (The Artist Trilogy #1) by Karina Halle.

Hi.

If you have been following my Goodreads column, you know that I’ve been reading Sins and Needles longer than usual. Around 2 weeks. To be fait, I read like 7% of it during those 2 weeks and the rest yesterday night. And I enjoyed the book very much. It totally helped with the aftertaste of Teach Me. This will be a praise review – just so you know. Here we go.

Synopsis:

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Ellie Watt is used to starting over. The daughter of a grifting team, Ellie spent her childhood being used as a pawn in her parents’ latest scam. Now she’s much older, wiser and ready to give her con artist life a rest. But returning to the dry desert town of Palm Valley, California means one more temptation than she bargained for – Camden McQueen. Once known as the high school weirdo, Camden is bigger and badder than the boy he used to be and a talented tattoo artist with his own thriving business. Ellie’s counting on Camden still being in love with her but what she’s not counting on is how easily unrequited love can turn into obsession over time. When Camden discovers Ellie’s plan to con him, he makes her a deal she doesn’t dare refuse, but her freedom comes with a price and it’s one that takes both Ellie and Camden down a dangerous road.

**WARNING** This book contains graphic language, sex and violence. Readers who are sensitive to sexual scenes, violence and a lot of cursing should refrain from reading this book.This is not YA or NA. 18 and above.

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on Seduced In The Dark (The Dark Duet #2) by C.J. Roberts.

Hi again.

I’m here with a review of the second book in The Dark Duet series. Yesterday, I wrote about my feelings toward Captive In The Dark… I finished Seduced overnight and yes, I am very tired and sleepy. Was it worth it? Yes and no. I don’t want to give anything away, but I liked it a bit more than than the first book. I think it’s because the story was developed better. Anyway, let’s talk about this! And don’t forget, this series is full of violence and some disturbing stuff. Don’t continue if you aren’t ready!

Synopsis:

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The exciting, titillating, and action-filled conclusion to Captive in the Dark.

What is the price of redemption?

Rescued from sexual slavery by a mysterious Pakistani officer, Caleb carries the weight of a debt that must be paid in blood.

The road has been long and fraught with uncertainty, but for Caleb and Livvie, it’s all coming to an end.

Can he surrender the woman he loves for the sake of vengeance?

Or will he make the ultimate sacrifice?

Quote:
It seemed to Caleb, the nature of human beings revolved around one empirical truth: we want what we cannot have. For Eve, it was the fruit of the forbidden tree. For Caleb, it was Livvie.

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on Captive In The Dark (The Dark Duet #1) by C.J. Roberts.

Hello.

I haven’t posted in a few days because I’ve been deciding what to post next. Sorry for that, if you’re reading this regularly. (Please, please, please!) Anyway, Captive In The Dark intrigued me for a long time. I could not decided if I want to read this or not. The reviews were very mixed ranging from “this is soooo disturbing” to “this was fucking mind-blowing”.  This book is suppose to be very disturbing, containing very explicit scenes and includes BDSM. It’s definitely more disturbing than Fifty Shades. So if you’re not up for it, don’t read this review because my curiosity got the best of me and I have read it.

Synopsis:

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Caleb is a man with a singular interest in revenge. Kidnapped as a young boy and sold into slavery by a power-hungry mobster, he has thought of nothing but vengeance. For twelve years he has immersed himself in the world of pleasure slaves searching for the one man he holds ultimately responsible. Finally, the architect of his suffering has emerged with a new identity, but not a new nature. If Caleb is to get close enough to strike, he must become the very thing he abhors and kidnap a beautiful girl to train her to be all that he once was.

Eighteen-year-old Olivia Ruiz has just woken up in a strange place. Blindfolded and bound, there is only a calm male voice to welcome her. His name is Caleb, though he demands to be called Master. Olivia is young, beautiful, naïve and willful to a fault. She has a dark sensuality that cannot be hidden or denied, though she tries to accomplish both. Although she is frightened by the strong, sadistic, and arrogant man who holds her prisoner, what keeps Olivia awake in the dark is her unwelcome attraction to him.

WARNING: This book contains very disturbing situations, dubious consent, strong language, and graphic violence.

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